This post is going to sound sad and a little pathetic. I've confessed before that I have this optimistic streak, which I guess is really a blessing, but it also means I fall harder when I don't find success.
After watching the YouTube about repairing my radiator/AC fan I felt much more confident about handling the matter. When you own a 2006 Honda Civic with only 85,000 original miles, you have to balance the age of the car verses the limited mileage.
I have two financial problems at the moment - my teeth and my car. Either will probably cost more than I have left out of my SS check. Normally, I count myself very lucky to be able to live a comfortable life on SS. But when you add on biggies like teeth and cars, it stretches the budget further than it will go.
I have vacillated between which is more important and which I will be able to see to financial completion. I just made the phone call to my long-time auto garage where I should have taken it in the first place. 'Yes, bring it in,' and I made an appointment for tomorrow.
Then I flipped tabs to read my email and learned I did not win two of the big contests I had hoped for. The one I really, really wanted was a big truck and a camping trailer. I really felt a pain in my heart. I had wanted that so much. Silly, I know. I one in a zillion chance. Then I read that I did not win the HGTV house giveaway.
You are probably thinking that you know you wouldn't win so you wouldn't have even entered. My sister always tells me that and I say but you've got to try. 'No, said she. I have no luck.' I do the same with my daughter. 'She says send me a link' but I know she never enters. My mother used to find my wins so amazing like I had written a best seller.
Right this minute I am feeling really sad. Feeling the loss. This morning I was feeling great about the day. Did it make the loss feel worse? I don't know. I know that in an hour, or a day or a couple of days, it will be just another couple of contests I didn't win but today it feels sad.
I don't have anyone that feels the way I do about contests. I am going to start a "Meet-Up" type of group when this covid finally gives us a break. I've found two places that have meeting rooms. So, until then I'll just share the ups and downs of contesting with you if it doesn't bore you to death.
More later ...